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Many months had pass now. Many friends i got to know. Many voices i heard.
But one i'm still waiting. Her voice is what i want to hear. Her msg is what i want to see.
Would she know that i'm missing her?

We guys are shallow. Most of the time we don't think when do things. We would selfishly
follow what we want and not what the opposite sex want. Which is love. The love and care
for that them is what they want. And not 'physical love'.

I was stupid then.. really stupid.
maybe thats why i'm angry at myself nowadays.

Head pain :/ sian... how how??? since morning... but wasn't for awhile. Then i came back again.
I don't think im going school tmr :/ BUT, might go to the halloween party x) hahaha!

then then today, i heard a really funny thing. Me and this friend of mine ( geraldine goh ) were glancing through the crowd at school see if there's any pretty girls. Suprisingly there isn't at that
time :( but but!!! this friend of mine got tired of saying which is pretty then she point to herself and telling me "this one pretty right?" hahaha!

If our heart were made to be like a compass. And that compass will point in only 1 direction.
and that direction will only lead you to someone. Someone who you will fall for.
Someone who you might get fight with. Someone who you might break their heart.
Someone who you will hold hands. That someone who might be your first and the last kiss.
And someone who you would die with right by your side.

Would you take the path?

i would..

I saw the girl who called me stalker today (: hahhaha! she look as pretty as usual (:

But i also got a stalker too!!! and her name is GERALDINE GOH!!!! X)
you can never miss her :b

xoxo

Do i want to let go of this feeling? Cause nothing is making it better.
My mind keep thinking the possibilities that it might happen again. But i don't think it will.
And again and again i'm killing myself.

Aku masih berharap untuk dengarkan suaramu. Aku hanya boleh menunggu sesuatu untuk
berlaku.

This feeling can only be heal by you or just by someone eles.. I wish that we could just go back
to the past. But i don't think its going to happen again. I just dont think so.

If You See Kay, will you her that i love her?

They say that girls think alot and guys don't think. Maybe that is true?
but i do think alot. does that make me a girl??? or i just got more of a girly thingy?? x)
hmm...

maybe i need to think simple. I need to learn not to think alot. Just let it be.
If it be, then let it be.

*haiz... now i think i won't be able to date GERALDINE GOH!!! X) haahaaha!
if you're reading this, im pressing your ******* arms (: hahaha!
you know i know what we mean (:

what now?...

The last person i think about before i slept, was you.
The first person i think about when i woke up, was you.

This mind would revolve around the picture of you.
and this heart would ache.

But what now?...

i don't know why but i have soo much feelings for you.
but it hurts to know if the truth was that you don't feel the same way.

i am not giving up, i know that it is you.
you make things around me soo perfect.
that is why im not going to let it go.

When deep injury is done to us, we never recover untill we forgive.
Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future. - Mary Caren Read

i'm soo angry at myself.. im angry, yes. But to what? ahhhh!
you face keep playing in my mind.

ivp finals tmr. all the best to us (:

I don't know which way it's going to go. When i let go of something that i really want, then i realise that i made a big mistake. Now it is hard to make that feeling come back again.
but why am i seeing every possibilities that there are still hope for me to hold on?

im such a stupid fella. didn't see that it was going the direction that i wanted. but now, i don't know which direction its going to be.

im begging you guys! please don't fight anymore... please..

actually nvm.. it just seems that you don't care. i don't know where i went wrong that made you msg me soo cold.. i don't know.. well fine.. if you want to do this to me. then fine.

why am i having this feeling?.. why are my eyes playing tricks on me?
everytime i see a word that has a 'ning' at the end, my eyes would focus on 'ning' instead of the whole word.

i really agree with friz.. this feeling really sux.. but i love it.
cause i know that i care for that person (:

i would give more than i take

I have seen many of my friends falling in love. They came to me and said " hey! i think i found the one". And most of my friends are with somebody. I am happy for all of my friends (:


Sometimes all we need is time.. but sometimes will time give you the answer to what you're waiting for?...

what a life..

For a picture that smiles and eyes that see.
A smile is only true, which the heart feels.
A pure expressions, hiding unsure emotions.
Your smile was a curve starting so slow and then beginning to glow.
For if she is shy, you will find smile.
Shimmering, shining, a natural delight.
A smile that is sure and not fake _____'s smile was a smile i take.
We'll smile at each other, till the moment is gone.
Somehow we grew stronger, unbreakable by any bond (:

wth! freaking moodswings kicking in... it's been quite sometime i never got any moodswing.. haiz.. idiot moodswing!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!

it doesn't matter what you see, cause i can never find someone like you. And it doesn't
matter what you say cause i can never face someone like you.

I dreamt about something... But i don't know if you had the same dream as me.

what would you do when something that you been wanting,
wants you back?

you've been waiting for this for many month and here the opportunity comes. what would you do? let it go? or you chase it?

we would all chase it. But when are you going to stop chasing it?
time will tell.

But i'll chase it till i got it.

you can live your whole life,
and never know who you are.

untill you see the world
through the eyes of others.

freaking hell! i ordered something and paid for it online. it took freaking 5 days. It was suppose to be send on wed. WTH!!! and even worst! they just put it outside my house. they didn't knock nor doorbell or call me. what a service!!! wanted to call them and give a piece of my mind. but nahh.. i got my thing alrady ((:

Everybody know that i was such a fool. To ever let go of you and that was wrong.
Yes i know what i said. But i didn't mean to break your hear. I didn't mean
to do that.

And here i am.. coming..

if you were to know to know somebody and really got with her,
then she broke up with you. Will it be easy for you to get back with her?
will it be easy to work for it as she likes it but your heart feel aching all the time?

it is hard.. and it was hard. you wanted more time, but it was too much time for me.
i gave what i had to offer, but that was it..

I'm tempted to ..... :/ hahahaha! tahan!!!!

I'm not an actor nor i am a star. I don't have my own car.
But im hoping so much that you stay
that you will love me (:

You keep thinking about the person. No matter how much you try
to forget about her, she keep coming back. Before i sleep, you will come to my mind.
Wake up, you appear in my mind. It's like you making me crazy over you.

They say that when you love someone, you can't stop missing that person. You will
feel your heart aching. When she replies with smiles or she msges you first, it ease your
heart totally.

You just make me feel like myself when i'm around you (:

I had a super nice day today (:

Sports Carnival with the kids!! and oh my they are soo cute!! especially Ayuni!! (:
gosh, i think when she grows up, she going to be a really pretty girl!

was really tired afterwards,
but got a nap in the bus before meeting at friend place.

Had dinner and was the waiter for the day for her (:
hahah! evil!!!! you!!!!
i had a really nice day with you today.

and you've change, for the better ;)
i like the new you

Ten miles from town, i just broke down.
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
and i'm all out here alone just trying to get home
just to tell you that i was wrong but you already know

was about to give up this journey
but to see you, i've started running to you.


All that i'm after is a life full of laughter,
i'm thinking that all that still matters is love ever after
cause i know that there's no life after you.